Today. As opposed to yesterday.

It's July 28th today. Tuesday. That means Lea comes tomorrow - I haven't seen her since March last year, and I can't quite explain how much I'm looking forward to meeting her at the train station.
July 28th. One year ago I was jumping on my toes, eager to move into an apartment I would share with four strangers. Two months ago I was no less eager to move out of said apartment.

July 28th. Five months and twenty-two days ago (that would be on February 6th) I met the guy I believe has permanently changed my life for the better. Nineteen days later I got to call him my boyfriend. Still can. On June 20th, we moved together. Now, that was fast, you may say. Why, yes it was, I would answer. But I haven't regretted a moment of it yet, and doubt I will for some time.
July 28th. 2009. To think it's nearly four years since my nephew was born. I still remember the day vividly. To think my best friend and I have known each other for more than twelve years. I feel old just thinking about it. Lately, I've been wondering more and more often how much longer that friendship will be able to last. I could listen to my hopes and say it will never end. But is that what I really believe? I'm not so sure. Twelve years change so little, and yet so very very much.

July 28th. 2009. What will life be like this time next year, I wonder? Will I still be as happy as I am now? Will I even be alive? If I was to die tomorrow, would I be able to look back at my life without regrets? I doubt it. Not regrets for things I've done. Those regrets never come to mind when I'm in the darkest corners of my mind. No, my regrets would come from all the things I haven't done - the things I've dreamed of but never got around to doing, never had the guts to go through with. Why do I think of these things now? I don't know. It was a sad episode of the Deadliest Catch today. That might be it. Who will ever know, really?

And that was my attempt at a serious blog. They may be far-between, but the quality probably makes that a relief. Thank you, and good night.

Yesterday is History. Tomorrow is a Mystery. Today? Today is a gift. Which is why we call it the present.